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Friday, January 19, 2018

Friendships

This coming Wednesday night we will start a brand new Ladies Bible Study.  It is called "We Saved You A Seat", by Lisa-Jo Baker.  I have cheated a little bit and went ahead and did some of the first weeks homework.  So far I am loving it.  This study is all about how to be a friend like Jesus.  It is based on how Jesus guarded His friends.  Prayed for them.  Protected them.  How friendship is not a casual thing to the Lord but very serious.  He takes friendship to the heart.  Do we?  Do I?  I want to but let's face it.  I don't.  We don't.  Sometimes friends make us weary and tired.  Sometimes I make my friends weary and tired.  We hurt one another.  We let each other down.  We disappoint each other.  And sometimes....we give up on each other and discard that friend.  The first thing this study tackles is that no matter what.....got that?  No.  Matter.  What......Jesus never, ever gives up on us.  Never discards us.  We are called to be like Jesus.  John 15:13 tells us to lay down our lives for our friends.  Just like Jesus.  Wow.  Would I do that?  For my husband?  In a second. For my children?  Yes ma'am.  For my grand babies?  In a skinny minute.  But for my friends?  That takes some serious and I mean serious consideration.  Don't be judging me....you would think twice too!  To love them that much.  I have some dear and wonderful friends.  Very dear to me.  I even call them my sisters.  This study is already teaching me how much I need to be a better friend but not only that ....I need to be a different kind of friend.  To let the walls I have so carefully built be torn down.  To allow them into my secret heart.  To desire to be part of their secret heart.  To not feel burdened by friendship.  That sounds very heavy and it is.  Friends can sometimes be a burden.  But it is one we are not meant to carry alone.  I need to learn to pray for my friends like Jesus did in the Garden of Gethsemane.  He earnestly and agonized over prayers forks friends.  How do I pray for mine?  How do you pray for your friends?  I am excited about this study and all that it offers to teach me as I lead the ladies through the weeks.  I have some unique plans for them in reaching out and making some new friends.  Hopefully, Jesus will use this study will touch their lives and hearts like He has already started to touch mine.



 

Wednesday, January 17, 2018

Almost a year

It is snowing today.  Quiet.  Peaceful.  Falling so softly.  Just a beautiful snow.  I may post a picture later but.....we will see.  Earlier today I walked past my husband since we are both home today and he reached out for me.  I gave him a quick kiss and said, "You know, we have almost been married a whole year."  We both agreed that it had been so fast and hardly seemed like any time at all.  He commented that years go faster, babe, when you are older.  He is so right.  So very fast.  I still can't believe I am married yet almost a full year.  The magic is still there for me.  I still have butterflies when I see him.  Still can't wait for him to come home.  A friend of mine just got remarried at school a couple of months ago.  She was a widow for close to 9 years. She told me yesterday that after this past weekend she almost called her new husband to come back....she needed him.  He lives in their home a few hours away and she still lives here until the end of the school year and until she sells her home.  She told me she didn't want to "need" him like she does.  When you are alone for a long time whether by death or divorce....you get very independent.  I don't like to say hard but ....maybe a little hardened.  Softening that takes some time.  I am softening little by little.  Depending on this man is coming easier.  Knowing he will never purposefully disappoint me or hurt me is sinking in little by little.  Knowing how much he really loves me is tendering this heart.  I told her to give it some time and she will grow to love her need of him.  I have.  Even though it is so scary when you have been alone for a long time.  It has been almost a whole year as a wife and my life is so different in this marriage.  Things are so different this time.  I told him the other night before we went to bed just how thankful I was that he was just so easy.  There is no tension, no fears, no anxieties with him.  I know what to expect for the most part.  I never walk on eggshells.  Marriage is not easy and I never want to diminish it with a word like that.  Marriage should be work.  It is a constant effort of dying to ones self and placing your spouse above yourself.  My man makes this so easy though.  He is so kind and so patient.  This first year is going so fast.....I want fifty more.  It pulls at my heart something fierce that I probably will not get fifty.  I think that makes him and our marriage all the more precious.  I am sitting upstairs in our office right now.  Watching the snow fall.  Thinking....almost a year.  Thank you, Lord.  Thank you.

Friday, December 29, 2017

a boy and his pigs.....and a bunny

yesterday i got the sweet privilege to watch my little grandson finley for a good chunk of the day.  he is just the sweetest thing.  so funny and so very smart.  he really can talk up a storm and he talks all the time.  one of his favorite things are pigs.  he played with some fisher-price little people pigs all day.  occasionally he would play with something else but always brought the pigs along too.  he cooked in the play kitchen and fed his pigs some...bacon.  who knew they liked it?  everybody else does so pigs can too!  just watching him it made me think when does a little boy (or girl) lose this love of something that they play with.  that attachment to a toy.  i don't know one adult who totes around a rag doll or a truck or a blankie from place to place.  but i see kids doing it.  i see parents fussing about it.  i don't really see grandparents fussing about it....we know it is gone too soon.  watching finley play with his pigs and occasionally pick up his bunny lovey blanket to sniff every now and then was just precious.  just a boy and his pigs and bunny.  no electronics or batteries needed.  just making the pigs walk around a barn, eat some bacon, jump in a truck and then good ole bunny to just smell for a second then place back down by his little side.  i think bunny must smell like home.  makes me wish we all had a bunny when the stresses of life cave in.  nothing is comfort like home.  i can't base this on anything Biblical at all.  not one bit of scripture backs this theory up but i do believe that God might just keep our bunnies, loveys, dolls, blankies our whatevers....for our homes in heaven.  we won't need them but just that thought that He cares for us so very much that something that brought us such comfort as a baby would be something i think the Lord Jesus would keep.  sounds so very silly, i know but watching my little boy and his pigs and his bunny.  not so silly at all....



just resting his little head

has his pigs in his hands ready to play



come on mommy pig....let's go play

carefully watching them between his knees



brought in his hippo to play for a while



getting ready to introduce a cow to the group



time for a quick snuggle of bunny



bunny sniffing is our fave

these days will be gone far too soon.  replaced with baseball, football, running around outside, school, cars and growing up way too fast.......give me a boy and his pigs and his bunny any old time

Wednesday, December 27, 2017

Christmas 2017

Christmas is over for this year.  Like every year it comes faster and leaves quicker.  We had a really good one too.  This was the first Christmas with my new husband and sweet step daughters in our home.  My girls and their families came over on Christmas Eve and David's girls and their boyfriends came too.  We had a great supper.  Decorated cookies and made a birthday cake for Jesus.  As a side note...Savannah cried her eyes out when I cut Jesus' birthday cake.  She truly is a drama queen!!  She thought only Jesus should eat His cake.  That girl!!  I took a ton of photos with my new (surprise) camera from my sweet husband.  He really is the best.  Get ready for a Christmas overload!!



Savannah is all smiles cutting out cookies



Piper was not ready....baking is hard work!

Brooks just ate his cookie dough. 


Sprinkles are the best!


Savannah is all business right now....Brooks just ate his sprinkles and frosting!


Cara and Jeff....sweet couple!


Brooks' new way of smiling!  He is so funny!



Leah and Trey....aren't they the sweetest!


Savannah loves Rapunzel!


Her shopping cart for her American Girl doll was a huge hit!


Piper is all about board games right now


The world's best husband....right there


Sweet Finley loved the remote control cars!


David and his girls....big goofball



All our girls....I love that they truly get along and love each other.

Mimi and her brood!  I can't wait to have a few more!!!



Kyra and Piper at my mama's on Christmas Day



All mom and dad's great grandbabies on one couch!


Piper got her own camera and some make up....can you tell??




Paw and his boys....Brooks and Finley love him!!



Mama and Bella.....she loves her dog!
It really was a great Christmas and I am so thankful for all our family being healthy and together.  I didn't get any pictures at David's mom and dads house but will get some of them soon.  They are all very camera.....shy??  That isn't really the right word.  They do not like their picture made at all.  But I will get some....never fear!  the Lord has been so good to us this year and I am just praising Him for all his blessings He just keeps heaping on this family.  Hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas!


Thursday, December 21, 2017

Christmas in my head.....and heart

Today was the last day of school for 2017.  Christmas vacation has officially begun!  ......... Moment of silence, Praise Da Lord!!!  Glory hallelujah!  I have a very full schedule over this break too.  Starting with when I got home I had a great surprise on my driveway.  New Christmas Trees!!!  I ordered 2 for my front porch and 3 for the columns outside beside the pool.  I do plan on posting some photos very soon because the best and most sweetest husband in the whole wide world bought me a new camera for Christmas.  Even though we agreed not to get each other one thing...he did anyway.  My old camera was starting to give me some issues and this was such a surprise and something I secretly really, really wanted.  I do just love him.  This is the first Christmas we are married and I want it to be so special.  In my head I have this whole scenario of how I want our Christmas to go.  I do that all the time with everything and rarely does it happen the way I think, or plan or even want!  Ideally I would love for my grand babies to come over on Saturday to bake cookies and then come back over on Christmas Eve to decorate them.  We do Christmas Eve with our family because both my daughters are married and have children.  I would never ask them to get up and come over to my home on Christmas morning.  That is their family time.  Cara and Leah are still single and as of this year do not have families outside of parents and grandparents.  So they and their boyfriends are coming on Christmas Eve for a big blended family dinner.  Now in my head I want all the food to turn out good and everyone to be laughing and talking and playing with the kids and just having a great time with each other.  We are so fortunate that our kids do get along and truly do like one another.  All the guys do too.  And the kids are .....well they are just kids and they love all of them.  Especially Cara and Leah.  I plan on baking a birthday cake for Jesus with the grand babies.  This will be one of our desserts and they are excited about helping me bake.  After supper I want someone to read the Christmas story from Luke in the Bible and then as we are sitting around the living room letting all the kids open their gifts and the big kids too.  I love presents and I know that Christmas is about Jesus.  What He did for us by coming to this world as a baby to deliver us from the our sin filled selves.  But the happy expressions on faces are precious to me.  I love giving gifts to people.  I love making people know that I listen and think about them when I buy them a gift.  It just warms your heart.  After all the excitement I like the idea of everyone just talking and visiting with one another.  Just watching our grown kids forge this new territory with us means so very much to me.  Then when everyone goes home I just want to sit back with my husband.  My sweet husband.  What a true and treasured gift he is to me.  A gift for this heart that is finally mended.  God brought Christmas to my heart in many ways this year.  I am so grateful and can't wait to spend many more with this man and our growing family.  That's how I want our Christmas to be this year....and every year to come.

Saturday, December 16, 2017

What do you "want" for Christmas?

Sorry...it has been forever since I posted and I have no excuse at all.  I have had plenty of things to write about.  Lots of memories, events and opinions but....I have been lazy.  I even let Thanksgiving go by with out telling you what I am thankful for!!!  Shameful.  So now since it is the Christmas season let me start with this....What I "want" for Christmas...I would like to start off by saying that this is a phrase that truly needs to be re-worded.  It should state:  "What I would like to give for Christmas".  For my family and friends I would like to give"

1.  My time....to sit down and just talk.  To observe the sweetness of my grand babies and soak all their youngness in deep.  To play with them and hold them and love on them like you only can with little ones.  That time goes by so fast.  Spend time with my husband.  To cherish this time in our lives.  No babies of our own, no teen angst to deal with, no schedule demands of ballgames, swim meets, recitals and the like....just with each other ..while we are in this "middle" age season.  To have long lunches with my girlfriends.  Fun shopping days....couples over for supper.  Precious time building lasting memories to keep me smiling when I no longer do get to go out so much.

2.  My prayers....to let all the people in my life know that I do pray for them.  To see the answers come and to praise God for the outcomes....no matter what they are

3.  My ears....to listen.  Not talk (for once) and just listen to the hearts of my family, friends and ones I hold so dear.

4.  My memories....to share what I know and what I remember with all my little ones.  Times that they will never know in this fast-paced, technology driven world.  To help them know of a slower more laid back life and to remember that nothing should get in the way of cloud watching, raindrop dances and snow flake catching.   Listening for thunder, watching the lightning.  Catching fireflies and waiting for that rainbow.

5.  Make some memories.....Let's face it...we don't live forever.  I want my grandchildren to have fond memories of times spent with Mimi.  To remember Mimi and Pap-paw as people who loved them and wanted them and invested in them.  A real legacy that they tell their own grandchildren about.  Grandparents that loved and served the Lord.  Took them fishing, played with them, swam with them, taught them how to bake and cook and plant flowers and work on cars and a million other things.


These are just a few things I would like to give.  Wouldn't it be nice if the whole world took on these few "gifts"?  Instead of what I want....what I would like to give.  Not things but themselves.  Something we all have.  Ourselves.  I saw on TV once that the number one thing that elementary aged children wanted for Christmas, birthdays and the like was a real family night dinner.  No TV, no phones at the table, no work to run right out to....sitting around a real table and eat together and laugh together and talk together.  What an awesome gift that would be!!

Saturday, November 11, 2017

Journeys and Seasons

This year has been quite the journey for me.  As I look at the calendar and I see that this month is almost halfway gone and next month is December.....well goodbye 2017.  What a year this has been.  I got married to the love of my life....yes, even at this late date.  What a God-send this man has been.  The changes that he has brought to my life are too numerous for me to even name.  I am overwhelmed by him daily.  Not just for the love, security, consistency and all the other wonderful emotions that come with him but also for just the things that he does for me.  He makes me coffee.  He brings it to me while I am getting ready.  He helps me make the bed.  Around the house.  He goes to the store with me.  There are also things that I no longer have to do.  For the first time in years I am not getting in wheelbarrows of wood in the house each day for my old wood stove.  Praise the Lord for that!!!  Anyway, I took some time off this year from teaching the Wednesday night Ladies Bible Study.  that was kinda nice to just be a participant and not a leader.  But last Wednesday i started back and I have really missed that.  We are doing the new Beth Moore, The Quest, and it is so good.  I am only on day 2 of my homework but it is fabulous.  A quest is much different than a journey by the way.  A quest is an investigative type mission of a journey or walk.  A journey is a meandering trip that gets you places.  Life is a journey.  Seasons of your life are journeys.  They can be quests too.  When things or issues need to be dealt with specifically but seasons of your life are journey based.  At least I think so.  Am I making any sense at all??  The season I am in right now is one I am enjoying immensely.  We don't have any children in my house and that is tons of weight off of our shoulders.  We aren't rich but we can pay our bills and have a very secure life and I am so grateful and thankful for that.  I have struggled financially in the past and it is a huge burden.  I know the Lord takes care of His children.  I trust Him on that completely....I have seen His hand all over my finances in the past.  I am just blessed right now...so blessed.  We get to watch our grandbabies grow up and experience life and change and do all the fun things they do.  To watch their journey is such a privilege and one I hope to continue to contribute to.   I so desperately want all my grandchildren to remember us as loving and safe and fun.  But mostly I desire for them to remember that we loved the Lord.  I pray for them daily.  Nothing ....absolutely nothing makes me feel at peace than to know that my children are walking with God.  Journeying with Him.  Not running from Him.  Avoiding Him but walking with Him.  That is a journey we are all on right now.  Those that are His.  If you belong to Christ then you are on a journey with Him.  Sometimes the terrain is rocky and hard and sometimes it is a vast, flat plain.  Or a dry desert.  Been there....many times.  But on our journey with Jesus the best part is....He is always there.  When I am running from Him....He is there.  When I am hiding....He is looking.  We cannot escape Him.  I do not know why we ever try to!  Anyway,  this Bible Study is already teaching me great things and I am loving it.  This journey I am on and this season I am in.....I'm loving it too.