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Tuesday, July 10, 2018

When the miracle doesn't come like we ask

Last week my sweet niece and her husband found out they were expecting a baby.  They went for their first visit and a sonogram to determine the due date.  There they were told that the baby had no heartbeat or were there signs of the pregnancy being viable.  They were heartbroken.  They had been trying for a long time and this was news that was just devastating.  But the doctor said to come back on Monday for a follow up sonogram and they would then determine what would happen next.  She asked us all to pray and I told her I was praying for a miracle.  I know how she feels all too well.  I had suffered through two terrible miscarriages and it is something you never get over.  Ever.  You always wonder and you never forget the due dates, the firsts you never get to have and so many other things that hide deep in a mama's heart.  I called only wonderful prayer sisters to join me in praying for this miracle.  Our Sunday School class even had a lesson from II Kings chapter 4 on Elisha raising the Shunamites' son from the dead.  I prayed to the Lord that if He could raise that child He could raise this one.  He is the same as yesterday as He is today.  Then came Monday.  Their appointment was late in the afternoon and they were told that the baby had indeed died and that nature was taking her course.  The miracle never came.  Or did it??  Brittany sent out a very long text to me and her cousins that she was praising the Lord for this and that it was growing her faith and she knew God's timing was perfect and this was His plan for her and Aaron.  Could I have done that?  Learning to praise God in the hardest and saddest times of our lives is so very hard.  We are hurting so deeply and praising is the last thing we want to do.  But God asks us to praise Him all the time.  In all things.  Not for all things but in them.  When we do that I believe He is working miracles....even in our heartbreak.

Saturday, July 7, 2018

Summer Time

It is no secret that summer is my favorite season.  I love everything about it.....the heat, the outdoor activities, family cookouts and get togethers....all of of it.  We have been spending tons of time in the pool this summer because it has been really hot.  The kids are swimming like fish and I am trying to teach Brooks how to swim without arm floats or a puddle jumper.  Last week he swam for 2 whole days without them!  He is doing so good!!  Finley is next and I am hoping to get Kyra over to my house to help her with her swimming.  She is a water bug too!  This summer is flying by already too.  Everyone keeps asking me how I feel about being retired and to be honest it has not really sunk in just yet.  I have had summers off for so many years it won't hit me until August when the kids go back to school and I don't.  I am pretty sure I am going to love it!!!  I have tons of things I would love to just do and lots of things to fill my time.  I do not ever plan on just sitting idle and watching life pass by.  We do have a couple of trips planned for this summer.  David and I are flying to Dallas, TX at the end of the month to get our youngest daughter from her summer internship.  And how about how awesome it is that she is only a little over an hour from Waco and I am planning on spending some serious time at Chip and Joanna Gaines store, Magnolia and the bakery and restaurant!!!!  Super excited about that.  I just love that family and their great family values.  We are heading to the beach for a few days in August and I am looking forward to that too.  I love, love, love the beach and can't wait to flop back in a chair and sink these toes in the shore.  My favorite thing to do there is people watch and dig for sharks teeth.  I am super exciting, let me tell you.  Anyway, hope you are having an awesome summer too! 

Piper is a water dog!  She loves the pool so much!



Brooks is really doing great this year and is learning so much!


Savannah is trying the swim team this year and is doing awesome!

Such fun days with the babies!



Blake and Brooks.  What great memories.


Thad helping his little man.


Mimi and her boys....what little sweeties!


Thursday, June 28, 2018

Glances

Last week my ladies group finished our Bible Study on Rachel and Leah.  So very good.  I learned so much about how I compare my life to other women and not on Gods plan for me.  We tend to glance at others lives as believers.  I think that we think if we just "glance" we don't really envy or covet or seethe in jealousy or desire whatever they have or are doing or are getting.  Make sense??  So last night I took some nuggets from that study and added a few and got the privilege of teaching a lesson to the College and Career kids from our church.  We hosted a dinner/pool party for them and I did the evening devotional.  I had the blessing of the teachers of that class and the blessing and encouragement from my husband.  What a joy they were.  So attentive.  They really seemed to listen.  Of course there were a few that kind of zoned out....you expect that.  But you know what??  That is totally ok.  Not one of those kids is deaf and God can plant a seed in a stony heart that will grow years from now.  I know.....it's happened to me. A few of them said the lesson hit them right between the eyes.  I love when God works like that.  At such a young age, these 20 somethings get humbled with courses in their lives that are not on track with the course that God has for them.  That was the goal I had in mind.  I didn't want to hurt their feelings by reminding them of sin in their lives.  Because lets face it....we all sin and we all compare our lives with others.  We all have the "Why them, God??" mentality at times.  Those glances, no matter how quick, stick with us deep in our hearts.  I reminded them of how social media for the most part...is a lie.  We only report the good stuff and we make it really good.  We see a friend get engaged and her ring is just a wee bit bigger or sparkly than ours.  We see that great new truck that has more horsepower than ours.  They get that great paying new job while we still work at Taco Bell. That new Coach bag.  That new phone.  That whatever.....  And our life seems to be stuck.  Not working out like we planned.  No blessings falling from heaven 'round here.  But is that true?  Is that really true??  Satan shoots his fiery darts and his aim is so good.  He dips the arrow point in jealousy, envy, hate....everything that God is not and he hits us with it.  Cinch your armor tighter.  Leave no cracks.  Keep you gaze on the true prize and on the path that God has for you.  When we glance away from that path....that is when we stumble.  God has goodness for us.  That is just that.....for us.  Just you.  Remember, someone is also glancing at you in this season of trial and seeing how you handle it.  In our trials we still have something to offer.  A humble heart to a holy God that never glances away.

Thursday, June 21, 2018

Tie-Breaker

Today I got to go to the Dr. with Megan and Thad for their anatomy scan of the new baby.  They are not doing a "gender reveal" party but just posted a cute photo on instagram.  I too my camera and took the worst photos ever but you will get the gist!!!




Here you can see them trying to hold some pink and blue balloons.  They wanted Finley to hold them and then release the color that was not for their new baby.  Not happening.  Toddlers can be so uncooperative!!  Who knew??  Also, the wind was horrible.




So we just tossed the others away and ta-daahhh!  We are getting another sweet baby boy!!!  Now we will have 2 girls and 3 boys!  How sweet.  I can't wait to get my hands on this little baby boy either.  If he is half as sweet and fun as his big brother I will just have to eat him right up.  Finley is a sugar-pie! 



Megan and Thad are both so excited and are super thrilled to have another son.  Now all the planning can begin!!!  I am just praising the Lord for all the sweet blessings He has given to us.  Children are a blessing straight from heaven!

Tuesday, June 12, 2018

Gettin' back in the swing!

Wow!  I have not posted one thing in forever and I am super sorry to my ten readers!!!  Since I last posted a ton of things have been going on in my life.  Tons!  First off.....We are going to be grandparents again!!!  My sweet Megan and Thad are going to have another baby in November.  We will find out what the baby is next week and I cannot wait.  Finley will be the sweetest big brother.  Megan kind of wants another boy but would love a baby girl too.  The Lord knows what is best and He knows I will be crazy about whichever!!  The second big news is......I got to retire from the school system this year!!  Hear that????  It is angels singing!!  I was so ready to be done and this was such an answer to prayer!  I have had so many people ask me what I was going to do and was I going to be bored.  The answer is.....I have tons to do and I am never really bored.  I can find way too much to entertain myself.  I have about 30000 hours of office work to catch up on for my husband.  Both sets of our parents are alive and well but occasionally need some help with this and that and now I can do that whenever they need me too and not when I can squeeze it in.  I can spend more time with my husband, my kids and my grand kids.  But most of all I already feel the stress of that job fleeing my mind and soul.  It is very hard to explain but my job was very stressful and very hard on me physically.  When I started there were 8 full time ladies and the work was evenly split.  When I left there was one full time worker and that was me!  Even split??  Not on your life.  I also get to keep my health insurance at no cost to me and that in today's world is pure gold.  I do plan on subbing in the classroom next year and I can say no when I want to for that.  I can now go places with my husband and not have to worry about asking off and all that junk!!  In other news, my oldest grand daughter, Piper,  asked to be baptized last Sunday and it was so sweet.  It just makes me so grateful and so proud of her and the decision to follow Jesus.  She has grown so much in the Lord this past year.  she started her version of a Bible study in school.  she said they were going to do it on the whole New Testament!  Set some goals, girl!!!  Her 2nd grade teacher is a Christian and had no problem with that at all.  Piper did witness to several children in her class and was so active in our schools Bible Club.  I am so grateful that these things are allowed and all you really have to do is ask.....the worst thing anyone can ever tell you is , No.   I have all kinds of little things happening every day that I have just let slip by.  I think I am going to remember them but here I sit....and I don't.  But I do have some summer goals:

1.  Teach Brooks to swim and Finley to jump and go under on his own
2.  Get my house organized and my stuff all unpacked
3.  Get my office under control and my accounting books in order
4.  Replace all the photos in the house with some updated ones
5.  Redecorate the living room of my house

These things to start.  But good grief, this is enough to keep me busy for months.  I do promise to not let this much time go by again.  I just got to get back in the swing again!!

Tuesday, April 17, 2018

What Matters

This past weekend David and I attended a Marriage Seminar at our church.  Some people asked us why in the world we were going since we have only been married a little over a year!  Well....our marriage matters.  A lot!  We both know that marriage is hard at best and we both believe that good, Christian advice goes a very long way.  Plus....who does not want a better marriage??  It was held Friday night and all day Saturday by a husband/wife team.  However, our Pastor called me on Thursday (the day before!) and asked me if i would lead the breakout session for the wives and before i could answer he put the husband of the seminar on the phone.  He explained how his wife was more of a support system than a leader and really was not comfortable leading.  I prayed a quick second (and I mean quick) and said....gulp....yes.  I had one friend who told me to call back and say NO!  That I was in no way equipped but I didn't.  I really prayed then and I asked God to help me and I felt in my heart that I should do this and that He would equip me.  The breakout session went great.  The women responded and the wife of the seminar team said it was fantastic.  I did nothing.....but God showed up.  I told the women right up front I was divorced and had a tension filled marriage for years and years.  I made a lot of mistakes and that this time around....we both were so committed to a Godly marriage.  On the Friday we had some homework.  To select off a sheet from 100 choices to pick around 10 ways we liked to be shown love from our spouse.  That was a little hard because my husband (the best man ever) did 90% already!  He is just so wonderful.  He said the same thing about me but I was quick to inform him that he was so easy to love and to show love too.  The other homework was to write down things we needed to ask forgiveness for.....hard stuff.  David so sweetly said, "You have nothing to write down."  But I did have a couple of things I felt I needed to ask forgiveness for and he had a couple.  I forgave him, of course because he is just such a wonderful man.  We came away from the seminar aware and reminded of what really matters in this life that God so richly blesses.  I told the ladies to do for their husbands,  clean up for him, pick up after him, cook for him, listen to him and want to be with him.  All these things seem so "old timey" to young women nowadays but.....they are Godly.  There is a course for everything in this world but one thing we so desperately need in this world is good, old fashioned "Housewife" school.  Even if you work a full time job you still are a wife and you still have a house.  Our husbands do countless things for us wives that go unseen and unsaid.  So turn his socks, empty his pockets before washing, cook his favorite dinner and for Pete's sake.....wear something different besides an old ratty t-shirt and floral pajama pants to bed!!!  That goes a long way and causes absolutely no stress to your lives together.  Is he not worth it??  Young women today are so pounded by this world to grab for their rights and to fight.  I found this Pin on Pinterest the other day and it really sums up what I want to say:


Women should not follow the world.  They should be tender, kind, refined, with faith, goodness in their hearts, with virtue and pure.

This is what matters

Friday, April 6, 2018

He is 2

My sweet and spunky Finley turned 2 years old on March 11th.  Thad and Megan had a birthday party a week later to celebrate because it has been a horrible, wet, snowy and freezing spring!!  Summer time cannot come quick enough for this old gal.  I took a ton of photos because there was a ton of kids there.  Who knew 2 year olds had so many friends??  I don't think I had any friends when I was two!!  Finley had a blast and so did all the other little kids.  It was a farm themed party because he is obsessed with pigs.  I mean obsessed.  All he talks about is pigs.  He just loves them.  His favorite gift was a plastic pig that oinked when you squeezed it.  Once he opened it he didn't put it down.  So sweet!


Here is my smiley little Finley!  Happy 2nd Birthday buddy!


Hooray!!  I'm 2!!!!




Megan and her life-long friend Kelsey with their boys, Finley and Brock.


Even birthday boys wear out after a little while!


Helping Finley blow out his candles....He did a great job blowing them out!!



Driving his buddies around in his old, reliable jeep!


Here are all his cousins eating all the cute little farm snacks!


Happy Birthday little Finley!!


You are the funniest and smartest little guy.  You have a huge vocabulary and talk non stop.  You love to figure things out and you love to just play and be super busy.  But you still love to snuggle up and let someone read to you.  You still cuddle up with "bunny" for every nap and bedtime and just when you need a little comfort.  Finley, I pray that you become a strong little boy with strong convictions and follow after Jesus.  Your Mimi and Pap-paw love you and want the best for you.  Can't wait to see what this year has in store for you!!