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Sunday, April 23, 2017

Why do I Lie To God?

Why do I lie to God?  This may sound ridiculous to you but this is something I do on a regular basis.  I water down my feelings, my needs, my desires, my problems and...yes, my praises to God.  I often feel like He is too busy or that there are way more important people with bigger issues for God to take care of.  This morning our pastor preached a message on this topic.  He spoke about how King David just laid it all out for God whenever things were desperate or whenever things were great.  I so tend to try to make God see things through my eyes instead of me seeing things through the heart of God.  He does care.  I am important.  He already knows what is on and in my heart.  He knows who I pretend to like but secretly can't stand.  He knows the guilt I feel about that very thing too.  And the funny thing is....He can change that!  If I would stop lying to Him and get out of His way.  My prayer life is the biggest area that I need to see a change in.  I have the desire and the want to.  I just don't do it.  Each morning when I leave for work I could kick myself for not praying for my husband before I drive away.  I promised myself and God that I would.  God knows my heart and He knows the things I want to do but.....I still don't do them.  Maybe it isn't lying to God so much as it is ignoring Him.  I do that too.  God will tell me through His word to do or to act a certain way....I ignore it.  I have no other excuses.  I find myself just going on and doing my thing and leaving God out of most of it.  I will throw God a few quick prayers each day over my people, over some issues, over things that come over the church call-outs we get.  But I still at the end of each day find myself telling God a lie.  I do not lay my heat out before Him.  I hold back.  Or I do not say anything at all.  Does this matter?  I believe it does.  As a child of God I am asked by Him to lay my burdens at His feet.  Cast all my cares on Him.  But I don't.  I pretend He doesn't really need to know the things that are on my mind and in my heart.  That if I don't say it....He won't know it.  That isn't...Praise the He works.  He still knows.  No matter how much I try to keep my heart matters a secret from Him, God still knows.  While I am learning to trust Him more and more.  Learning to honestly open my heart before Him.  Learning that God does care about even the most stupid of things.  Because  His word says:

  "Psalm 145: 18 The LORD is near all who call on Him, to all who call on Him in truth;  He hears their cry and saves them."

Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Spring Break Catch-Up

I have been absent quite a bit from blogging since I got married because I have been super busy and life is just way too fast!  But last week we were out of school and I am getting most everything moved from my old house to my new house and hopefully, prayerfully soon....things will be back to normal.  Well..... at least my kind of normal!  Over the break we took a day trip to our zoo.  It is just the best.  We live only about 45 minutes away so we go pretty often.  All the animals were out and my sweet boy, Brooks, had an awesome time.  He loved all the animals.  Especially the "elephans" and the "bye-bye-boons".  The girls had a great time too.  Finley just had fun with us.

Piper the Polar Bear popped up to say, "Hi!"

My Piper had to have a photo stop here!!

Working hard to climb the giant spider web.

Brooks is just the sweetest boy!

Finley was holding on for dear life to the grizzly bear!!!

Brooks' favorite!!!

So pretty!  I love the grace of the giraffes.

Erica and her sweet crew!

Just a "little" visitor on the walk through the zoo,  We didn't bother to say hello to this particular reptile!

Beautiful tropical birds

Finley was just glad to be out of the stroller and free to roam!

We also celebrated Easter at Erica's house.  After a great church service and a great lunch together we had an Easter Egg Hunt.  So fun!

Where's my basket, Mimi?

Brooks loves to blow bubbles!

Oh my sweet Savannah....she is the drama queen!

Pretty Megan and her little man

Brooks caught on fast!

Sweet Pipey,  she was such a good helper!

Savannah was on the hunt for sure.

Kyra just wanted to eat her candy....right away!

Finley did get one egg.

Now school is back in and life is getting busy again.  But I am so grateful and so thankful for my sweet family.

Saturday, April 15, 2017

The Darkest Day

Yesterday was Good Friday.  Tomorrow is Easter....blessed Easter Sunday.  Today is Saturday.  The darkest day I can ever think of.  In my own self-centered world where only I and my pitiful problems live I can think of many dark days.  But there is none darker than the day that Christ lay in the tomb.  His followers unsure, lost, deeply troubled.  Where was their King?  Where was their friend?  Where was the one they called Jesus the Christ?  Where were the disciples?  Were they huddled in their homes?  Gripped with fear?  Angry?  Confused?  This Jesus they had given up their lives for was dead.  Buried in a borrowed tomb.  Nowhere for them to see.  To touch.  To talk too.  To laugh or cry with.  I can find no conversations of the Saturday that lies between Friday and Sunday on the scriptures.  That tells me that the day was dark.  Quiet.  Fear-filled.  But in the darkest of nights.  The darkest of all days.  The sun always peeps above the horizon....Sunday is coming.  With it...the resurrection of the Lord, Jesus.  He is alive.  He is risen indeed!  That makes each day from this day on....the brightest of days because my Savior Lives.

Sunday, April 2, 2017

29 years and 364 days ago

Tomorrow is my oldest daughters 30th birthday.  30.  How can she be 30 years old??  So for today I am relishing her being in her 20's.  Doesn't sound nearly so old.  Thinking back I remember the day she was born with such sweetness.  That tiny, tiny baby that made me a mother.  What a miracle.  After she was born and everyone had left us alone at the hospital I just remember holding her and being so glad she was mine.  She was just perfect too.  All her toes and fingers.  Sweet little round and smooth.  Just a haze of blonde hair.  Beautiful blue eyes.  As she grew she was so quiet.  So shy.  No fuss.  Such a low maintenance baby.  When she became a toddler her little personality started to bud.  A quiet stubbornness that was beyond measure.  I truly do not recall her ever pitching one tantrum.  But stand her ground?  All.  Day.  Long.  She is still a very stubborn adult.  Funny how some things stick.  The time has went by a such a speed that I can't even believe it.  Our family dynamics have changed tremendously.  She is now married.  Has three gorgeous children of her own. Is secure in her marriage.  With her station in life as a stay at home mom.  No other higher calling than that,  for sure.  Now she gets to observe her own babies grow and come along in this world.  Thirty years is a long time when you think of some things.  Getting a new mortgage....30 years seems like forever.  But, for me?  29 years and 364 days ago??  Seems like yesterday.

Wednesday, March 29, 2017

Ladies & Gentlemen

At work I listen to klove radio station.  It is a contemporary Christian music station that I just love....hence the name, I suppose!  For the most part they just play great music but they do have the news and some really sweet and encouraging stories from time to time.  Today they were talking about a new class being offered at an elementary school in Minnesota that is teaching young boys how to be gentlemen.  Open the doors for girls, help them with their coats....all the things that young men are supposed to do for ladies.  They are also teaching the girls how to be young ladies.  Sitting properly, napkins in your laps etc....  I have to say that my husband is a perfect gentlemen!  He always opens doors, carries the heavy stuff and would wait on me hand and foot if I let him.  I am so not used to all that!!  But anyway, I am glad to see this kind of thing going on today.  In a world where people are so "confused" about their gender, or their identity  as a man or a woman, or how women get so hostile over being treated kindly and with respect.  This country has just gone nuts!  Since I live in North Carolina where the infamous house bill 2 is always on the news and now the NCAA is threatening to pull all games for at least a decade in North Carolina the idea of men being gentlemen and women being ladies is a desperate need right now.  I love the whole idea of men being men and women being women.  Let's face it....some things are just better done by a woman and some things just need to be done by a man.  I don't want to climb on the roof and I sure do not want my man wearing polish on his toes!  I am not a feminist in anyway at all.  I do not mind one bit my husband carrying the burden of decision making, being the spiritual leader and just being the head of our family.  That is the way it is supposed to be as stated in the Bible.  Now my sweet husband does want us as a couple to decide things together.  I do appreciate that.  He also does not demand his way and is very open to allowing me to decide some things for us as a family.  But when the hammer falls on something critical for this family.  I will leave that up to him and the Lord to decide.  Do I ask him when I can wash clothes or buy groceries or if I can go outside?  No.  that's just dumb.  But before I spend a bunch of money.  I ask.   And he does too.  We consider each other with decisions.  And it works for us. It is the proper and mannerly thing to do in a marriage.  Teaching a class on how to be a little gentlemen and a little lady?  I'm all for that!  It makes for a great platform for these children's' future decisions and their lives.

Wednesday, March 15, 2017

And suddenly....Finley is One

Since I have gotten married and my life has been on warp speed....I have turned into a complete slacker grandmother!  I did not post photos from Finley turning 11 months old!!  I have been slack on my picture taking too.  There is just not enough time in the day. In the week or month!!  So here goes a two-fer of Mr. Fin.

Hey there Mimi!!  where is that good ole buddy of mine, Mr. Beaver??  Do you have him???

What??!!  You say he is hiding in my room!  waiting to play with me!!!  Yay!!

Where are you Mr. Beaver...where are you??  

Ha-ha!  Look at that Mimi....he thinks he can bite my feets and I won't get him......

Wrong!!  I'll just give you a pinch and a squeeze and a quick pull on yer tail, Beavy.

Would I ever do anything to hurt you??  Not a cutie-pie like me.  Never!

Finley you are just the sweetest thing.  You are super smiley and super funny.  You have around 12 or 14 teeth.  wow!  You wear size 24 month clothes because you are practically a full grown man!  You sleep great at night.  Naps are pretty much hit or miss but when you take one.  You take a good one.  You aren't walking yet but soon....very soon.

Now on to Finley's first birthday!  It is so hard for me to believe that this little guy is a year old.  Time has just went so very fast with this baby.  I took Fin's first year photos too.  they were so sweet.  It has been so warm and spring like until we did his pictures.  Then winter came back with a vengeance!  Poor baby was freezing....but he was a champ!

What a handsome little guy

He looks so much like his mommy.  Those eyes!!

I could just eat him up!!!

Can I eat a rock, Mimi?  Can I??

Mommy says no rocks!!

Getting ready to dig into some cake!!!

Not super messy...what a sweetie!

Brooks loves him some cupcakes!!!

Finley with two of his girlfriends....Stella and Chandler!!

My sweet Megan and Thad with their little man

These wild girls had a blast in the cold outside jumping in a bouncy house!

Why am I too little to jump with those wild girls??

Could not resist a hug from my little guy with my sweet new husband!!

Hopefully life will slow down a bit for me in the next couple of months and I can spend more time with my grandbabies and not always be so rushed.  Finley I am so looking forward to spending more time with you this summer and seeing how you develop and change and just see what the Lord has for you.  I just love you to pieces!!

Wednesday, March 8, 2017

What's wrong with kids today?

What's wrong with kids today?  this is a question we adults hear all the time.  Since I work with little kids I have a few insights as to the answer.  Ready???  Their parents.  That's what is wrong.  And not just their parents....all the adults around them.  Their teachers (yikes...I'll get in trouble for that) their daycare providers. And for the most part all the adults in these children's lives.  We expect them to be little adults.  Huge responsibility is placed on the heads and shoulders of 5 year olds.  As I watch the kids at school I see 25 five year old babies take complete care of themselves at lunch.  Not one person helps them open anything.  Helps them dump all their trash.  Helps them clean up a spill.  Or if they do all they do is yell at them.  They are 5.  I see little kids get off the bus, all sleepy eyed and moving at a snails pace.  They come into breakfast at school and their shoes are on the wrong feet.  Their shirts are on backwards or mis-buttoned and the clothes they have on look and smell like they just came out of the dirty clothes hamper.  Where are the adults that are supposed to get them ready???  I know I am a dinosaur but when I was little my mother fed me breakfast.  She laid out my clothes which were clean.  I did not get a choice. She made sure I had a lunchbox with lunch in it or money to pay for my lunch at school.  My hair was not just combed but "fixed" every single school day of my life.  She took care of all the little things for me.  She checked my bookbag for notes and papers to sign.  Not me....I was a child.  And you know what???  I grew up fine.  I am a responsible adult.  I hold down a job and I can tie my own shoes.  Where are the adults in these little children's lives?  Now here goes the rant......they are on their phones, their tablets, looking at twitter, facebook, instagram and all sorts of things social.  They are staggering out of bed to barely say goodbye as they shove their babies out the door to catch the bus.  Telling their kids to just charge their lunch and maybe someone will share their snack with you at snack time.  Then they yell at the kids when they didn't get their papers out for the parent to sign the night before.  Or they yell at the kids because they need field trip money.  So these poor babies start their days off with a swift kick to their self-esteem.  Think you are making them responsible???  You're not.  You are making them feel unloved, unwanted, uncared for and the so very much are undeserving of that.  Our children are gifts.  Gifts from God that are yours for a short time.  They are on loan to us to shape and to mold into Christ-followers and to love and care for.  Not to dump on society or to just toss them around.  We have so much to answer for in this life.  I do.  You do.  As for me, I sure do not want to answer to the Lord for being a shoddy, irresponsible parent and now grandparent.  What's wrong with kids today?  Why don't we take the time to ask them.