I Survived

I just got back from the gym and I have survived the first week.  One kettle bell class and three zumba classes plus I walked a total of 2.5 miles on a treadmill.  I am practically a triathlete!!  I do not know why I have let myself get so out of shape but I am turning over a new leaf.  While I will never be a size 2 (nor would I want to be) because I like pie and cake too much I am determined to tone up and trim down some.  This has been a life long struggle for me.  I have never been small or thin but I have been smaller than I am right now.  I just want my clothes to fit....I have a lot of clothes that I really like and I can't afford new ones so I better get it in gear or I am in a world of hurt!  I am also trying to eat better and eliminating junk.  I am big grazer.  I literally could eat all day long...one bite at a time.  I actually never get hungry because I graze so much.  But this is a habit.  One I intend to break.  With warmer weather coming I will be outside more and will keep my hands in something other than a box of crackers or cereal or whatever I can grab.  Habits are hard things to break.  And there are somethings that I just have to tell myself that I just can't have....anymore.  One of those is candy.  I love candy.  I mean LOVE it!  I could live off of peanut M&M's and Butterfinger bars.  I love ice cream too but I will keep that habit.  Dairy is good....right?  I just thank the Lord I am not a chip eater because then I would probably have dips of all kinds in the fridge and then I would weigh 250 + pounds!  I just hope that in heaven all the skinny girls are fat and that all of us "healthy" girls can eat to our hearts content and never gain an ounce!!!