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Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Packed Up...and Outta Here

I just took the last load of Christmas decorations downstairs and shut the doors on my storage closets.  Vacuumed up glitter, tree needles, flocking from my new tree and countless little teeny tiny balls that fall off of everything.  Woo-hoo...I am tired.  Something always feels really good to me when I get all that stuff packed up until another year.  My house always looks so much more spacious and I always want to rearrange everything and redecorate.  Big plans huh???  I will move stuff around and I will probably redecorate with stuff I already have and Lord knows I have a ton of stuff.  That is something else I have done.  Thrown out some stuff.  It is stuff I don't need, don't use and don't really want so it's outta here!!  Throwing away anything is hard for me.  I don't care for changes.  I am a creature of habit and a slave to sameness.  Change my last name to boring.  Cindy Boring?  Kind of a nice ring...don'tcha think?  Anyway, here at the close of 2013 I was thinking today of other stuff I need to change and let go and revise.  I don't really make resolutions because I never keep them.  Still need to lose 20 lbs...only 27 to go!  But there are a few things I need to pack up and send outta here.  A few things I need also.  Get rid of my self-criticism and make peace with me.  I will not ever be a size 2 or wear my hair long so I can put it in a messy bun or ponytail.  I will never like wearing jeans or sweat pants.  I will always prefer dresses and skirts.  I will never be any taller.   I need to accept me....all of me.  Parts I don't like??  Too bad.  God made me and to constantly put myself down is a sin against Him.  Got to stop that behavior.   It is a very poor testimony to the work that God has started in me.  I can improve things.  Lose weight, grow my hair out (a little) change my clothing style, wear my make-up differently.  Let's face it, I am never going to give up wearing make-up.  I like it and I need it.  Don't know many women who don't.  I'm just sayin' any old barn looks better with a fresh coat of paint.  I need to pack up bad attitudes.  I have them on several topics and they need to go.  Life is just too precious to waste it on lingering on things that are not bringing glory to the one who gives me everything.  My job, my church, my home, my family, friends and a zillion other things.  Better attitudes are a comin!  I need to love my family better.  My daughters and sons-in-law and grandbabies all know I love them but I can always love them more.  By telling them, by praying for them more and more specifically, by serving them.    My precious friends.  I love my sisters in Christ and I want them to know that.  I need to tell them, put more effort in being a better friend.  Serve them.  Pray for them...everyday.  With a new year on the horizon it gives a sense of freshness.  Newness.  Starting over.  Clean slate.  Pick your adjective but it all boils down to one thing.  A blessing.  Each and every day is a blessing that we can either make better or cause it to be blighted.  Marked up in some way.  For this fresh year coming I want it to be better.  Each day better and better.  Am I going to fail?  You bet.  Resurrect old things.  Probably.  But with God helping me and showing me and shaping me.  I am so hopeful of better times.  Praise Him, for helping me pack up stuff and sending it outta here!

1 comment:

Tracy said...

I love you just the way you are....